I'm full of all three.
I want to run in the mornings - but I'm too tired and it's too cold. I start a new job next week so my hours will change. I'll be able to run after work again (which I LOVED!). But that excuse of starting a new job next week is stopping me from running today. Makes perfect sense, doesn't it?
I want to run next months LA Marathon Relay (I'm running with Train 4 Autism - awesome people & group if you want to donate to my team Cassie & Scot Train 4 Autism page ) in under 2:50. Can I do it? Yes, I can. If I put in the work. Will I do it? That is the question.
I want to see results, but I don't want to put in too much work. If I don't put in the work my time won't improve. I know this. I know what I need to do, but I keep coming up with excuses not to.
Which brings me to fear.
Fear is unfortunately running rampant in my life right now.
I have fear with running - I want to push myself but am scared of getting hurt. But how will I know what I can do if I don't push? What am I waiting for? Why can't I push myself now? Why do I keep holding back? I KNOW I can go faster then I do, yet I'm afraid to be uncomfortable.
I'm also living with fear. A few weeks ago my house was broken in to while my husband and I were both at work. I came home and found the back door broken. I called 911 and they searched the house to make sure there was no one in it. Stuff was dumped out everywhere - dressers, desks, closets, wine cabinet. All that was stolen was electronics and feeling safe in my house. We've taken measures to protect our house, but I'm still trying to get over my fear of leaving the house. We are going to adopt a dog soon, which I know will help.
Maybe what I'm trying to say is - I need to let go of the excuses and the fear if I want my expectations to become reality. There's no reason I can't be a faster runner. There's no reason I can't wake up earlier to work out. There's no reason I shouldn't feel safe in my own house. Once I let go on my excuses and fear I will be in a better place.
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Thursday, February 14, 2013
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
A Year in Review....but not really
Towards the beginning of the month I saw so many blog posts of people I follow on twitter recapping the 2012 year and all their running. I thought about doing that, but I realized this year that running led me to something deeper.
Running opened up a whole new world for me - a world that I didn't know would exist within my world. I stepped outside my comfort zone many times this year. From cheering on random people at the Disneyland Half (and making a sign for random strangers and hoping to SEE random "strangers" (@runlikeacoyote & Teal and Beth from @Lifeisarun), dressing up in costume at a half marathon, making a Got Chocolate Milk video and asking people to vote on it, to actually talking to Dorothy from @MilesPosts in Vegas (while there was a print out of the magazine cover she was on to our right). It wasn't just people that I met (or hope to meet - Lisa (@runlikeacoyote) and I will both be running the same half in January and one of my goals is to meet her in person!). It was the things I've learned, both about myself and running.
I learned a lot about myself this year. I learned that I don't like getting up in the morning to run before work because it's cold, but I love the feeling after. I discovered the greatness that are Pro Compression socks (and FINALLY no blisters!). I've learned that even though its one of the hardest things to do that I LOVE trail running. I've learned that other peoples running adventures have shaped mine, even if they don't know it - I've read their blogs, tweets, etc and those people have proved to me that it can be done if you believe in yourself. I've learned that I really like running, and proving people wrong. I've learned that I need to stop doubting myself. I've learned that there are limits with everything, except running. I've also learned that the only limits I have when it comes to running are the ones that I put on myself. In 2013 I plan on pushing myself even further outside my comfort zone and past those limits.
Running opened up a whole new world for me - a world that I didn't know would exist within my world. I stepped outside my comfort zone many times this year. From cheering on random people at the Disneyland Half (and making a sign for random strangers and hoping to SEE random "strangers" (@runlikeacoyote & Teal and Beth from @Lifeisarun), dressing up in costume at a half marathon, making a Got Chocolate Milk video and asking people to vote on it, to actually talking to Dorothy from @MilesPosts in Vegas (while there was a print out of the magazine cover she was on to our right). It wasn't just people that I met (or hope to meet - Lisa (@runlikeacoyote) and I will both be running the same half in January and one of my goals is to meet her in person!). It was the things I've learned, both about myself and running.
I learned a lot about myself this year. I learned that I don't like getting up in the morning to run before work because it's cold, but I love the feeling after. I discovered the greatness that are Pro Compression socks (and FINALLY no blisters!). I've learned that even though its one of the hardest things to do that I LOVE trail running. I've learned that other peoples running adventures have shaped mine, even if they don't know it - I've read their blogs, tweets, etc and those people have proved to me that it can be done if you believe in yourself. I've learned that I really like running, and proving people wrong. I've learned that I need to stop doubting myself. I've learned that there are limits with everything, except running. I've also learned that the only limits I have when it comes to running are the ones that I put on myself. In 2013 I plan on pushing myself even further outside my comfort zone and past those limits.
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